I can't remember the fire. I know that it happened. I remember it happening, but I can't vividly recall any images of it.
I remember what happened. I remember that we pulled up and it looked like a fire in the driveway. I remember how the flames quickly shot out the other side of the back of the house. I remember moaning and crying "Oh my GOD!!!" when the flames came through the front windows, and I certainly can't forget the feeling of complete despair when the flames were coming out of both kids' bedroom windows upstairs.
I don't remember the fire trucks arriving -at all... And that's odd because there were tons and tons of fire trucks. I don't remember when my friends got there, or when the HUGE crowds arrived. I do remember wondering why the fire police were allowing so many spectators -many with children, to stand so close to a burning house. What if the windows blew out (before they were all smashed out)? What if the house collapsed and rained debris on everyone? How could these people not be worried about these things? Didn't they have fire safety in school?
I remember there being thick, black smoke. I remember that the flames were bright and hot and angry. I can't see it in my mind though. I know that I've looked at house fires on TV shows/movies/commercials, and that is NOT how our home looked.
I can't tell you how our home looked.
I don't remember.
I don't think that I WANT to remember.