Thursday, February 7, 2013

1/31 I am okay

I am okay.  I am okay because I am blessed.  I am blessed to have amazing family and friends and friends of family and family of friends.  They are truly amazing, and I am blessed to have them directly and indirectly in my life.

I am blessed also because through our suffering, we have been able to help facilitate a miracle.  We have had SO MANY people help us.  The amount of which just completely blows my mind.  We have had people who know and like us help us.  We have had people who do not directly know us help us.  We have also have had people who know and don't necessarily like us (putting it nicely) help us.  We have had SO MANY people come to our aid in our time of need. SO MANY people have been touched and moved by our tragedy.  SO MANY people have opened up their hearts to us in so many different ways.  People who normally would not have been able to open up their hearts in such a way.  Through our suffering, we have been the key to unlocking their hearts.  To know this information -to know that we have helped to bring about a miracle, is amazing. It is awe inspiring.  It is healing like nothing else.

Don't get me wrong.  There are most certainly still MANY, MANY up's and down's.  However, now that I know this truth, I can see this from a new perspective.  Being able to see the incredible love brought about through all of this lets me know that we are not alone in this.  It lets me know that our suffering is not senseless.  It lets me know that while it's hard now, we are being carried by HIS love, by HIS hand, by HIS faithfulness in us.  HE chose us for this job; for this miracle.  HE CHOSE US!

I grew up in the Catholic Church.  I've since grown away from the Church and from God.  I don't know how long it's been since I've actually been to Church save for the occasional funeral or wedding.  While I believe in God, I don't normally witness to anyone.  I've never been so compelled to do so.  However, this is amazing.  How anyone, God-fearing or not, can deny that is beyond me.

It will be a long road to recovery.  It will be hard.  There will be many and more up's and down's.  We're not alone though.  He carries us in Spirit.  He carries us in faith.  He carries us in friends and family.

We had to loose almost all of our earthly possessions to realize just how truly blessed we are, and blessed we are indeed.


dannyscotland said...

I heard someone say once, "Whatever path I choose to take, God will find a way to use me." While you certainly did NOT choose this, I think it still applies. God has found a way to use you. I am happy to hear you finding a positive thing going on in the midst of this. I know it doesn't mean you're magically or immediately all better now. But it is a good sign that you are even able to see something good happening around this situation. I hope that makes sense the way I'm thinking it and isn't coming across the wrong way.

Caring Lady said...

You brought tears to my eyes! You are an amazing person!!! <3

Bloggie McBlogger said...

It doesn't come off the wrong way at all. That's exactly how it was meant.

Thank-you so much always for all of the kind words and positive reinforcement. It really does mean sooo much! <3